Chelsey LeBlanc Photography

A photograph is a story waiting to be told.

My series based on “The Fates” from greek mythology. Clotho, Lachesis, and Atropos.

Fears

Yesterday, I saw Chelsea Roden’s photo and discovered a collaboration group of about 40-50 photographers who were unable to attend #LAFG2013 and in their grief decided to start this collaboration to keep their creativity flowing and their spirits high. Of course, I jumped on it because it’s getting pretty depressing seeing all their amazing photos and knowing I’m missing out. So at least this way I can still collaborate with others from around the world.


So, the first concept was our biggest fear. I ended up writing out 7 pages in my 365 journal deciphering what fear is using real definitions, what types of fears there are, which type my biggest fears are applicable to, and deciding on two main fears that encompass a handful of sub-fears (which include some of my largest fears). It went like this:

"…I’m trying to decide what my biggest fear is or even if I have a biggest fear. There are a lot of things I’m scared of… sharks/whales, open water, being alone/losing loved ones, depression, and change. It’s so hard to decide which overpowers all the others.

Googles definition of fear is:

"(Noun) - An unpleasant emotion caused by the belief that someone or something is dangerous, likely to cause pain, or a threat.
(Verb) - Be afraid of (someone or something) as likely to be dangerous, painful, or threatening”
So, one could say there are many types of fears, in 3 groups, danger, pain and threat. But which do I fear most? All are worthy of inflicting fear, that’s for certain. I suppose the one i have dealt with most is pain… not necessarily physical pain but emotional pain.

So, I have narrowed it down to an “emotional fear”. Now which things to I fear most in an emotional way or on an emotional level?

Loss - “The state or feeling of grief when deprived of someone or something of value”
        -Applicable fears —> Change and being alone

Depression - “Severe despondency and dejection, accompanied by feelings of hopelessness and inadequacy.”

Those two things sum up my biggest fears because change and being alone can apply to loss. Depression… well that sums up even more. It sums up my fears of hoplessness, feeling inadequate and my fear of feeling like I’ll never stop crying or feel happy again. Some would even say that loss could be applicable to depression. However, loss is not required to feel depression so I will keep them seperate. “


This photo was extremely personal and therefore is very difficult to post. It’s a side of me that no one sees or even knows about. My boyfriend of almost 4 years, is the only person who’s even seen that part of me. He may not have seen my very lowest point but he’s gotten pretty close. Not even my parents have seen this, nor would I want them to. Which is another reason why it’s hard to post this because it’s likely that they will see it. Hopefully they will read this and know that I’m not severely depressed or anything. But like most people in the world, I can sometimes suffer from a mild depression. It’s a terrible feeling and anyone who has experienced it knows why I fear it. If you haven’t experienced it… consider yourself very lucky. It’s the worst feeling you could possibly imagine. All the light and warmth leaves you, even if you know in the back of your mind that it’s not that bad, that you aren’t alone or that it will get better, you cannot will yourself to believe it in that moment.

Loss it pretty self explanatory, I get very attached to people I care about and when they leave me it rips and tears me apart and scars me. Even the oldest of scars can still hurt me. Thinking about how someday someone wont be around anymore is practically unbearable for me. The mere thought of losing my boyfriend, in any way, brings tears to my eyes because I don’t know what I would do without him.

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(Source: Flickr / chelseyriot)

foroncetherewasbeauty asked: Hello I currently study A level photography and am a bit stuck for ideas but would look to do some portraiture. How did you and what did you use to edit the photo, 'Neglected Garden' So you were able to get the background like that. Many Thanks

I always use photoshop to edit photos. Photoshop CS5 is what I use.

for that particular photo I just used a texture. When I use textures I either just lower the opacity and use layer masks to remove some of the texture on key points of the image like the face or I change the layer type to screen or soft focus. but you can try many different things.

I would suggest just playing around with photoshop! you’d be surprised what you can learn! I’m completely self taught when it comes to photoshop. (:

In Life and Death on Flickr.Via Flickr:From death there comes life, and in life these is death.
+1 alternate version in comments
I left my job yesterday, it feel pretty freeing to know that I have two weeks of freedom before I have to work again (that is, if I get the job I’ve requested to transfer to). Nevertheless. I feel free.
If you wanna congratulate me on becoming free, check out and like my facebook page. because… one: I will be posting a before and after of this photo there! and two…. why not? Also, I may be starting a 365 project and you won’t want to miss when I start that. (:tumblr |  facebook |   website |   formspring | 500px

In Life and Death on Flickr.

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From death there comes life, and in life these is death.

+1 alternate version in comments

I left my job yesterday, it feel pretty freeing to know that I have two weeks of freedom before I have to work again (that is, if I get the job I’ve requested to transfer to). Nevertheless. I feel free.

If you wanna congratulate me on becoming free, check out and like my facebook page. because… one: I will be posting a before and after of this photo there! and two…. why not? Also, I may be starting a 365 project and you won’t want to miss when I start that. (:

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Turn It Off, In All My Spite on Flickr.Via Flickr:"Turn it off, in all my spite
In all my spite, I’ll turn it off
and the worst part is 
before it gets any better
we’re headed for a cliff
and in the free fall I will realize
I’m better off when I hit the bottom.” "Turn It Off" - Paramore
This photo has been done before, and I know it. However, to me, it means something. 
Sometimes you have to let go of a lot of important things to move forward. But there are always some things you can always hold on to that will keep the darkness away.tumblr |  facebook |   website |   formspring | 500px

Turn It Off, In All My Spite on Flickr.

Via Flickr:
"Turn it off, in all my spite
In all my spite, I’ll turn it off
and the worst part is
before it gets any better
we’re headed for a cliff
and in the free fall I will realize
I’m better off when I hit the bottom.”


"Turn It Off" - Paramore

This photo has been done before, and I know it. However, to me, it means something.

Sometimes you have to let go of a lot of important things to move forward. But there are always some things you can always hold on to that will keep the darkness away.

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Catching Butterflies on Flickr.Via Flickr:
In less than two weeks I’ll be moving away to go to school. I’m terrified, and excited. It doesn’t really feel like it’s happening. I’ve gotten so used to this routine that I’ve been in since I graduated high school two years ago that it doesn’t feel like my life is going to change dramatically in 3 weeks but in my mind I know it will be.
Also, on a side note. I’ve been really considering starting a 365 during the 12 months I’ll be in school. Would anyone be into that? Seeing my crappy photos everyday? hahaha
I want to challenge myself, as well as document ever single day (or almost every one at least) of my college experience. I’m just worried that I won’t be able to motivate myself to not give up. After all, I’ll be in school and working. My time will be pretty well consumed, let alone trying to fit in a 365 project. I’ll just have to keep reminding myself that it’s my project, my rules, and if it’s impossible to take a photo one day or if the photo is crap, so be it, that’s just the way things will be.
Although this still won’t help much, it still sounds terrifying. School, work and a 365. If it happens.. wish me all the luck in the world! (and don’t be afraid to give me a tip or two! (:  )tumblr |  facebook |   website |   formspring | 500px

Catching Butterflies on Flickr.

Via Flickr:
In less than two weeks I’ll be moving away to go to school. I’m terrified, and excited. It doesn’t really feel like it’s happening. I’ve gotten so used to this routine that I’ve been in since I graduated high school two years ago that it doesn’t feel like my life is going to change dramatically in 3 weeks but in my mind I know it will be.

Also, on a side note. I’ve been really considering starting a 365 during the 12 months I’ll be in school. Would anyone be into that? Seeing my crappy photos everyday? hahaha

I want to challenge myself, as well as document ever single day (or almost every one at least) of my college experience. I’m just worried that I won’t be able to motivate myself to not give up. After all, I’ll be in school and working. My time will be pretty well consumed, let alone trying to fit in a 365 project. I’ll just have to keep reminding myself that it’s my project, my rules, and if it’s impossible to take a photo one day or if the photo is crap, so be it, that’s just the way things will be.

Although this still won’t help much, it still sounds terrifying. School, work and a 365. If it happens.. wish me all the luck in the world! (and don’t be afraid to give me a tip or two! (: )

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Clouded Judgment on Flickr.Via Flickr:
Another version of the photo from the other day.Help me pick a name for this photo I just can’t decide on anything!

Clouded Judgment on Flickr.

Via Flickr:
Another version of the photo from the other day.

Help me pick a name for this photo I just can’t decide on anything!

Keep Your Feet On The Ground, When Your Head’s In The Clouds on Flickr.Via Flickr:
+ 2 in comments" make sure to build your home brick by boring brick
or the wolf’s going to blow it down.keep your feet on the ground, 
when your head’s in the clouds.
well, go get your shovel
and we’ll dig a deep hole
to bury the castle” “Brick by Boring Brick" - Paramore 
I know this has kind of been done before, and I wanted to go somewhere a bit different but it just didn’t go that way in the end. However, I’m happy with it!
I’m just glad to be shooting again.
I’ll be posting a square crop and a detail close up below and a before and after on my facebook page.tumblr |  facebook |   website |   formspring | 500px

Keep Your Feet On The Ground, When Your Head’s In The Clouds on Flickr.

Via Flickr:
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" make sure to build your home brick by boring brick
or the wolf’s going to blow it down.
keep your feet on the ground,
when your head’s in the clouds.

well, go get your shovel
and we’ll dig a deep hole
to bury the castle”


Brick by Boring Brick" - Paramore

I know this has kind of been done before, and I wanted to go somewhere a bit different but it just didn’t go that way in the end. However, I’m happy with it!

I’m just glad to be shooting again.

I’ll be posting a square crop and a detail close up below and a before and after on my facebook page.

tumblr | facebook | website | formspring | 500px

It’s the Unknown We Fear on Flickr.Via Flickr:“It’s the unknown we fear when we look upon death and darkness, nothing more.” - Albus Dumbledore
It has been far too long. I’ve been having a really tough time lately making myself inspired and motivated to take photos. I just couldn’t. I hadn’t picked up my camera in about a month before this week… I started to feel like the need to take photos was fading from me and I was terrified of that because I have nothing else.. as awful as it is.. I don’t have a back up dream job. And not only this but I’m already lined up to start school for a Digital Photography course in october as well. 
In just over a month, I’m moving away from most of my family, friends and my boyfriend to go to this school. Perhaps my creative mind feels this stress and I couldn’t force anything out of it for this reason. but honestly, I’ve been in this habit of work, home, work, home, for so long that I haven’t been able to even fully comprehend the fact that in less than a month I will be leaving my job i’ve been going to for a year and a half, leaving my home (possibly the last time that I will ever live with my mother ever), my friends, and my boyfriend of 3 years.
I can’t. I just can’t get it in my head that things are going to be changing dramatically very soon. I mean, I know that they are, it just doesn’t feel like it is.
I have so much anxiety about so many things I couldn’t possibly ever talk about them all, not in a fluid way that would make sense anyway.
All I want to say is this photo is my way of showing how my mind is all over the place and it’s making it difficult to produce anything. and at times it truly feels like I’m losing my light, the thing that makes me…me.

It’s the Unknown We Fear on Flickr.

Via Flickr:
“It’s the unknown we fear when we look upon death and darkness, nothing more.”
- Albus Dumbledore

It has been far too long. I’ve been having a really tough time lately making myself inspired and motivated to take photos. I just couldn’t. I hadn’t picked up my camera in about a month before this week… I started to feel like the need to take photos was fading from me and I was terrified of that because I have nothing else.. as awful as it is.. I don’t have a back up dream job. And not only this but I’m already lined up to start school for a Digital Photography course in october as well.

In just over a month, I’m moving away from most of my family, friends and my boyfriend to go to this school. Perhaps my creative mind feels this stress and I couldn’t force anything out of it for this reason. but honestly, I’ve been in this habit of work, home, work, home, for so long that I haven’t been able to even fully comprehend the fact that in less than a month I will be leaving my job i’ve been going to for a year and a half, leaving my home (possibly the last time that I will ever live with my mother ever), my friends, and my boyfriend of 3 years.

I can’t. I just can’t get it in my head that things are going to be changing dramatically very soon. I mean, I know that they are, it just doesn’t feel like it is.

I have so much anxiety about so many things I couldn’t possibly ever talk about them all, not in a fluid way that would make sense anyway.

All I want to say is this photo is my way of showing how my mind is all over the place and it’s making it difficult to produce anything. and at times it truly feels like I’m losing my light, the thing that makes me…me.

- on Flickr.

- on Flickr.

Hello Cold World on Flickr.Via Flickr:
So, this who overgrown series hasn’t really been described has it? Well, they were born from a dream or two I had. A dream where I imagined these women who had the ability to grow plants and flowers from their bodies. They were ordinary and yet extraordinary. Nature gravitated to them and thrived in their presence; fed from their very essence, their souls. They are like mother natures children or sisters in a way, they protect and feed nature, always. 
They aren’t born knowing what they are and I imagine them living normal lives besides the fact that they are complete green thumbs and are unrelentingly drawn to nature. Until one day they “mature”, so to speak. When they become ready to mother and care for the nature around them. but I imagine this process being a painful one.
For this sister, I saw her suddenly falling to the floor of her home in indescribable pain and coughing blood up her throat and into her mouth where she tastes the gritty flavour of soil. Her face contorting into a horrifying expression and watching, wide-eyed, as branches rip through her muscles and she begins sprouting flowers and branches from her flesh uncontrollably.
____________________
Am I weird or what? Am I the only one who finds these beings I’ve dreamt up intriguing at all?tumblr |  facebook |   website |   formspring | 500px

Hello Cold World on Flickr.

Via Flickr:
So, this who overgrown series hasn’t really been described has it? Well, they were born from a dream or two I had. A dream where I imagined these women who had the ability to grow plants and flowers from their bodies. They were ordinary and yet extraordinary. Nature gravitated to them and thrived in their presence; fed from their very essence, their souls. They are like mother natures children or sisters in a way, they protect and feed nature, always.

They aren’t born knowing what they are and I imagine them living normal lives besides the fact that they are complete green thumbs and are unrelentingly drawn to nature. Until one day they “mature”, so to speak. When they become ready to mother and care for the nature around them. but I imagine this process being a painful one.

For this sister, I saw her suddenly falling to the floor of her home in indescribable pain and coughing blood up her throat and into her mouth where she tastes the gritty flavour of soil. Her face contorting into a horrifying expression and watching, wide-eyed, as branches rip through her muscles and she begins sprouting flowers and branches from her flesh uncontrollably.

____________________

Am I weird or what? Am I the only one who finds these beings I’ve dreamt up intriguing at all?
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Janaya on Flickr.Via Flickr:
One of the photos I did a while back for my cousin. This is Janaya, and she made this shoot both fun and difficult at times… because she’s a kid, and they tend to have the attention span of a pea haha. but that’s okay, I understand this. Besides, I really like the photos that came out of that day!
Before and after of this photo on facebook. I expanded, and switched out her legs and you can see the originals of both the main image and the one i used the legs from. so go check that out, and like my page while you’re there! Please? :Dtumblr |  facebook |   website |   formspring | 500px

Janaya on Flickr.

Via Flickr:
One of the photos I did a while back for my cousin. This is Janaya, and she made this shoot both fun and difficult at times… because she’s a kid, and they tend to have the attention span of a pea haha. but that’s okay, I understand this. Besides, I really like the photos that came out of that day!

Before and after of this photo on facebook. I expanded, and switched out her legs and you can see the originals of both the main image and the one i used the legs from. so go check that out, and like my page while you’re there! Please? :D


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Shadow Tricks on Flickr.Via Flickr:
Playing in the light.
Just a simple portrait with only very minor adjustments and curves.

Shadow Tricks on Flickr.

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Playing in the light.

Just a simple portrait with only very minor adjustments and curves.

Glass Jaw on Flickr.Via Flickr:
I’m so glad to finally post a photo that isn’t client work. Seriously.. I’ve been doing nothing BUT working the past week and a half. I’m exhausted. I have an 8.5 hour shift tomorrow starting at 8am. Not looking forward to that. I mean, I should have probably put the hour or two I put into this photo into client work but.. honestly I needed this. And it’s not like I won’t finish the client photos, I will. and it isn’t that I don’t enjoy client work.. it’s just far more stressful and to be honest this is where my heart lies when it comes to my photography.
Also, I’m sorry print winners.. I haven’t even had a chance to think about printing and sending the photos. ): I feel horrible. But perhaps I’ll add a little surprise with it as an apology for taking forever to send them. No promises but, I’ll try and think of something haha.tumblr |  facebook |   website |   formspring | 500px

Glass Jaw on Flickr.

Via Flickr:
I’m so glad to finally post a photo that isn’t client work. Seriously.. I’ve been doing nothing BUT working the past week and a half. I’m exhausted. I have an 8.5 hour shift tomorrow starting at 8am. Not looking forward to that. I mean, I should have probably put the hour or two I put into this photo into client work but.. honestly I needed this. And it’s not like I won’t finish the client photos, I will. and it isn’t that I don’t enjoy client work.. it’s just far more stressful and to be honest this is where my heart lies when it comes to my photography.

Also, I’m sorry print winners.. I haven’t even had a chance to think about printing and sending the photos. ): I feel horrible. But perhaps I’ll add a little surprise with it as an apology for taking forever to send them. No promises but, I’ll try and think of something haha.

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